{"id":85681,"date":"2019-10-01T19:00:55","date_gmt":"2019-10-01T15:00:55","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"-0001-11-30T00:00:00","modified_gmt":"-0001-11-29T20:00:00","slug":"","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/?p=85681","title":{"rendered":"\u201cA\u011fl\u0131 il\u0259 deyil, \u00fcr\u0259yi il\u0259 sevm\u0259k qad\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hvi ola bil\u0259r\u201d<\/b><\/font>"},"content":{"rendered":"

M\u0259tan\u0259t \u018fs\u0259dova: “Bu iki mahn\u0131 ür\u0259yimd\u0259 nisgil kimi qal\u0131b”<\/strong><\/p>\n

“Çox h\u0259ssas insanam. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 özüm kimi bilir\u0259m. Onlara h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q yan\u0131ram. Ka\u015f ki, bel\u0259 olmazd\u0131m. Soyuqqanl\u0131 olard\u0131m, h\u0259yatda heç kim\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q mehriban münasib\u0259t göst\u0259rm\u0259zdim. Neyl\u0259yim? Allah\u0131m m\u0259ni d\u0259 bel\u0259 yarad\u0131b”. “Üç nöqt\u0259” q\u0259zetinin qona\u011f\u0131 göz\u0259l s\u0259sli xan\u0259nd\u0259 M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m \u018fs\u0259dovad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m, m\u0259\u015fhurlu\u011fun siz\u0259 verdikl\u0259ri çox oldu ya ald\u0131qlar\u0131?<\/strong>
\n\"\"– Ald\u0131qlar\u0131 dey\u0259rdim. Ondan ötrü ki, bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131m tamamil\u0259 korland\u0131. M\u0259\u015fhurluq \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rimi, s\u0259hh\u0259timi \u0259limd\u0259n ald\u0131. Bir sözl\u0259, sinir sistemim pozuldu.<\/p>\n

– Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z ömürd\u0259n raz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131?<\/strong>
\n– \u015eükür Allaha. Allah m\u0259n\u0259 fiziki c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n sa\u011flaml\u0131q verib. Göz verib, \u0259l verib, ayaq verib. Bunlara gör\u0259 Allah\u0131ma t\u0259\u015f\u0259kkür edir\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 göz\u0259l s\u0259s verib. Bütün bunlara gör\u0259 ömürd\u0259n raz\u0131yam.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259sinizd\u0259 bir yan\u011f\u0131 var. Bel\u0259 ki, mu\u011fam oxuyark\u0259n insana toxunur…<\/strong>
\n– D\u0259rdli insanlar bel\u0259 olur. Ür\u0259yind\u0259 Allah qorxusu olan, ona yax\u0131n olan, h\u0259yat\u0131 h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fli d\u0259rk edib ya\u015fayan insanlar bel\u0259 oxuyur. H\u0259yat\u0131mda çox z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259r alm\u0131\u015fam. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m o kövr\u0259k m\u0259qamlar s\u0259sim\u0259 yans\u0131y\u0131b. Ona gör\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n mu\u011fam\u0131 oxuyark\u0259n bir yan\u011f\u0131, bir q\u0259mginlik duyulur, hiss edilir.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m, mu\u011famdan söz dü\u015fmü\u015fk\u0259n mu\u011fam sizin üçün n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir?<\/strong>
\n– M\u0259n el\u0259 o mu\u011famla-1998-ci ild\u0259 dövl\u0259t televiziyas\u0131nda yay\u0131mlanan “G\u0259l s\u0259h\u0259rim” verili\u015find\u0259 oxudu\u011fum “K\u0259sm\u0259 \u015fik\u0259st\u0259” il\u0259 tan\u0131nd\u0131m. Mu\u011fam m\u0259nim üçün h\u0259yatd\u0131r. Mu\u011fam bizim irsimizdir. Milli-m\u0259n\u0259vi v\u0259 m\u0259d\u0259ni s\u0259rv\u0259timizdir. Bir sözl\u0259, mu\u011fam bizim h\u0259r \u015feyimizdir. Mu\u011famdan b\u0259hs ed\u0259rk\u0259n ustad\u0131m Alim mü\u0259llim Qas\u0131mova t\u0259\u015f\u0259kkür etm\u0259s\u0259m, olmaz.<\/p>\n

– El\u0259 Alim mü\u0259llimin ad\u0131n\u0131 ç\u0259kmi\u015fk\u0259n bir az da onun haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015faq…<\/strong>
\n\"\"– Alim mü\u0259llim\u0259 “mu\u011fam\u0131n pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259ri” deyirl\u0259r. M\u0259n qürurlan\u0131ram ki, el\u0259 bir s\u0259n\u0259tkar\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n su içmi\u015f\u0259m. Y\u0259ni mu\u011fam\u0131n sirl\u0259rini ondan öyr\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m. Bununla yaln\u0131z v\u0259 yaln\u0131z f\u0259xr etm\u0259k olar. Alim mü\u0259llim bir dühad\u0131r. Ona h\u0259r zaman minn\u0259tdaram.<\/p>\n

– \u018fg\u0259r bu s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259 olmasayd\u0131n\u0131z, özünüzü hans\u0131 sah\u0259d\u0259 tapard\u0131n\u0131z?<\/strong>
\n– Y\u0259qin ki, h\u0259kim olard\u0131m ya da tibb bac\u0131s\u0131. Yaxud da hüquq-mühafiz\u0259 orqanlar\u0131ndan birind\u0259 çal\u0131\u015f\u0131b yen\u0259 d\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259nim\u0259, mill\u0259tim\u0259 faydal\u0131 olard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Siz \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r xalq musiqil\u0259ri oxuyurdunuz. Sonradan oxu t\u0259rzinizi d\u0259yi\u015fib estradaya keçdiniz. Bu siz\u0259 ç\u0259tin olmad\u0131 ki?<\/strong>
\n– Xeyr. Çünki, m\u0259n o vaxtlar da estrada oxumu\u015fdum. Amma s\u0259sim mu\u011fama o q\u0259d\u0259r yat\u0131rd\u0131 ki, efirl\u0259rd\u0259 daha çox ona yer verirdim.<\/p>\n

– Hans\u0131 mahn\u0131 M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m \u018fs\u0259dovan\u0131n göz ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z ed\u0259 bil\u0259r?<\/strong>
\n– “Q\u0259rars\u0131z m\u0259n oldum”. Bir d\u0259 “Qal s\u0259n\u0259 qurban”.<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259 bu mahn\u0131lar?<\/strong>
\n– “Qal s\u0259n\u0259 qurban” mahn\u0131s\u0131nda s\u0259n\u0259tkar\u0131m\u0131z Zahid \u018fliyevin d\u0259sti-x\u0259tti var. Onun n\u0259f\u0259sinin istisini duyuram o mahn\u0131da. Onun v\u0259fat\u0131ndan sonra mahn\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259tirdi. “Q\u0259rars\u0131z m\u0259n oldum” mahn\u0131s\u0131 da r\u0259hm\u0259tlik bac\u0131m\u0131n sevdiyi bir n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 idi. Dünyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259zd\u0259n 3 d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l bu mahn\u0131n\u0131 bac\u0131m üçün oxumu\u015fdum. Bu iki mahn\u0131 ür\u0259yimd\u0259 nisgil kimi qal\u0131b v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259ni a\u011flad\u0131r.(kövr\u0259lir<\/em>)<\/p>\n

– M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m, qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n böyük s\u0259hvi n\u0259 ola bil\u0259r?<\/strong>
\n\"\"– Qad\u0131n deyirsiniz d\u0259? Bilmir\u0259m, nec\u0259 q\u0259bul olunacaq, amma bu m\u0259nim fikrimc\u0259 bel\u0259dir. A\u011fl\u0131 il\u0259 deyil, ür\u0259yi il\u0259 sevm\u0259k qad\u0131n\u0131n böyük s\u0259hvi ola bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n\u0259td\u0259 u\u011furlar qazand\u0131qca h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131zda qara zolaqlar da yer alma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Ümumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131n bel\u0259 paradoksuna haz\u0131r idinizmi?<\/strong>
\n– Xeyr. Bel\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fmirdim. Sanki, m\u0259nim görk\u0259mim v\u0259 s\u0259sim m\u0259nim dü\u015fm\u0259nim oldu. Bel\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259vvür etmirdim.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m \u018fs\u0259dova h\u0259yat\u0131nda n\u0259yi görm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259zdi?<\/strong>
\n– Bu xarakterimi. Çünki, çox h\u0259ssas insanam. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 özüm kimi bilir\u0259m. Onlara h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q yan\u0131ram. Ka\u015f ki, bel\u0259 olmazd\u0131m. Soyuqqanl\u0131 olard\u0131m, h\u0259yatda heç kim\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q mehriban münasib\u0259t göst\u0259rm\u0259zdim. Neyl\u0259yim? Allah\u0131m m\u0259ni d\u0259 bel\u0259 yarad\u0131b.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m müsahib\u0259ni xo\u015f hissl\u0259rl\u0259, u\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259rinizl\u0259 bitirm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m…<\/strong>
\n– Tacir b\u0259y \u015eahmaro\u011flu dediyi kimi, yen\u0259 m\u0259nim o günl\u0259rim olayd\u0131. Bax, o günl\u0259rim\u0259 imkan\u0131m olsayd\u0131 bu saat, bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 qay\u0131dard\u0131m. \u015eirin xatir\u0259l\u0259rdir. Qon\u015fular biz\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fard\u0131, dey\u0259rdik-gül\u0259rdik, can deyib, can e\u015fid\u0259rdik. O vaxtlar\u0131m\u0131 çox ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259t\u0259nat xan\u0131m söhb\u0259timiz o q\u0259d\u0259r maraql\u0131 oldu ki, heç bilm\u0259dim, suallar nec\u0259 ba\u015fland\u0131, nec\u0259 qurtard\u0131. M\u0259n siz\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kkür edir\u0259m. D\u0259v\u0259timizi q\u0259bul edib h\u0259msöhb\u0259t oldu\u011funuz üçün minn\u0259tdaram.<\/strong>
\n– Kollektiviniz var olsun. M\u0259n d\u0259 siz\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kkürümü bildirir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Röv\u015f\u0259n Tahir
\nFotolar: Elgün Calalzad\u0259<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u0259tan\u0259t \u018fs\u0259dova: “Bu iki mahn\u0131 ür\u0259yimd\u0259 nisgil kimi qal\u0131b” “Çox h\u0259ssas insanam. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 özüm kimi bilir\u0259m. Onlara h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q yan\u0131ram. Ka\u015f ki, bel\u0259 olmazd\u0131m. Soyuqqanl\u0131 olard\u0131m, h\u0259yatda heç kim\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":251278,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_lmt_disableupdate":"","_lmt_disable":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[102],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-85681","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-medeniyyet-butun-xeberler"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/85681","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=85681"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/85681\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/251278"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=85681"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=85681"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=85681"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}