{"id":56508,"date":"2018-01-10T14:06:45","date_gmt":"2018-01-10T10:06:45","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"-0001-11-30T00:00:00","modified_gmt":"-0001-11-29T20:00:00","slug":"","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/?p=56508","title":{"rendered":"D\u0259yan\u0259t Osmanl\u0131: \u201cM\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimi m\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmad\u0131\u201d<\/b><\/font>"},"content":{"rendered":"

“O gün geydiyim t\u0259z\u0259 paltar\u0131n qoxusunu h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 unutmam\u0131\u015fam”<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259f\u0259ki müsahibimiz tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u015fair-publisist, Az\u0259rbaycanda Atatürk M\u0259rk\u0259zinin ba\u015f redaktoru D\u0259yan\u0259t Osmanl\u0131d\u0131r. Müsahibiml\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259rin\u0259, keçmi\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131q.<\/p>\n

– U\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259riniz harda keçib, o ill\u0259ri nec\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/strong>
\n– M\u0259nim do\u011fma yurdum Borçal\u0131n\u0131n Saraçl\u0131 k\u0259ndidir. Gürcüstan\u0131n \u0259n böyük k\u0259ndl\u0259rind\u0259n biridir. Türkiy\u0259d\u0259, Naxç\u0131vanda, Qaraba\u011fdak\u0131 saraçl\u0131lar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 bir tayfan\u0131n tör\u0259m\u0259l\u0259ridi.  Qaraba\u011f xanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qurucusu P\u0259nah\u0259li xan da bu tayfadand\u0131r. \u0130ndi d\u0259 öz\u0259llik\u0259rini, ad\u0259t-\u0259n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri qoruyub saxlay\u0131rlar. Atam Osman, anam Yet\u0259rl\u0259 18 ya\u015f\u0131mad\u0259k Saraçl\u0131da ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam. Ellikl\u0259 yaz-yay\u0131 da\u011flarda, pay\u0131z\u0131 bin\u0259d\u0259, q\u0131\u015f\u0131 k\u0259ndd\u0259 keçirmi\u015fik. Bu ya\u015fam t\u0259rzi T\u0259r\u0259k\u0259m\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n\u0259n\u0259vi v\u0259 do\u011fal kurallar\u0131ndand\u0131. Da\u011fdak\u0131 yurd yerimiz Yast\u0131 qar idi. M\u0259n d\u0259 1965-ci ilin iyun ay\u0131n\u0131n 16-da Yast\u0131 qar yayla\u011f\u0131nda do\u011fulmu\u015fam. Bin\u0259 yerimiz Saraçl\u0131 me\u015f\u0259sind\u0259 olub. Sonralar yava\u015f-yava\u015f camaat oturaq h\u0259yata al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Anam me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 zo\u011fal y\u0131\u011fma\u011fa ged\u0259nd\u0259 mütl\u0259q bin\u0259 yerimiz\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rdi. Ora-bura yön\u0259l\u0259rdi, qocaman a\u011faclardan tökül\u0259n ç\u0131r-ç\u0131rp\u0131 y\u0131\u011far, bir müdd\u0259t kölg\u0259sind\u0259 oturub köksünü ötür\u0259rdi. Sanki bununla xatir\u0259l\u0259rini diriltm\u0259y\u0259 çal\u0131\u015fard\u0131…<\/p>\n

Babam Yunus dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ara aç\u0131q olanda biz bazarl\u0131\u011fa Türkiy\u0259y\u0259 gedirdik. Buna 40 günlük bazarl\u0131q deyilirdi. Türkiy\u0259ni o tay adland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar. Y\u0259ni, da\u011flar\u0131n o üzü, o tay\u0131. Bir-birind\u0259n o\u011ful-q\u0131z evl\u0259ndirirmi\u015fl\u0259r, kim harda ist\u0259s\u0259, yurd sal\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Sovetl\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259r ba\u011flan\u0131r, qohum-qarda\u015f bir-birind\u0259n ayr\u0131 dü\u015für. Yar\u0131 o tayda, yar\u0131 bu tayda.  El-oba ayr\u0131 dü\u015fmü\u015f do\u011fmalar\u0131ndan çobanlar vasit\u0259si il\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r tuturmu\u015flar. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, çobanlar bir-birind\u0259n ismar\u0131c gönd\u0259rirmi\u015f: Filank\u0259sin evind\u0259 düyün olub, yaxud filank\u0259s r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 gedib. Uzun v\u0259 üzücü ayr\u0131l\u0131q bel\u0259c\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f n\u0259sill\u0259rin \u0259laq\u0259sini unutdurub…<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 do\u011fmalar\u0131mdan çox az adam qal\u0131b. Dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r il gedib ata oca\u011f\u0131na ba\u015f ç\u0259kir\u0259m. Orada böyük evimiz, torpa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, \u0259ziz keçmi\u015fimin diri izl\u0259ri var. D\u0259c\u0259l, dala\u015fqan u\u015faq idim, c\u0131z\u0131\u011f\u0131 keçm\u0259m\u0259k \u015f\u0259rti il\u0259 çox s\u0259rb\u0259stlik verirdil\u0259r, Bir g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259ks\u0259l n\u0259zar\u0259t vard\u0131. Bu, insan inki\u015faf\u0131 üçün t\u0259m\u0259l amill\u0259rd\u0259ndir. Milli, ail\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 bir aurada böyümü\u015f\u0259m. Bilirsiniz, h\u0259r tip ayr\u0131ca bir m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t, t\u0259rbiy\u0259, dünyagörü\u015f, s\u0259viyy\u0259 dem\u0259kdir. \u0130nsan harda olsa, özüyl\u0259 o mühitin t\u0259sirl\u0259rini, \u0259xlaq\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259msil v\u0259 t\u0259qdim edir.<\/p>\n

Tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f n\u0259sil olmu\u015fuq. K\u0259ndd\u0259 sovetl\u0259rd\u0259n önc\u0259 iki hac\u0131 olub, Biri Hac\u0131 Bayram, dig\u0259ri Hac\u0131 Hasan. Biri ana, dig\u0259ri ata t\u0259r\u0259fim.  \u0130kisi d\u0259 a\u011fa olublar. \u0130nqilabdan sonra ana babam ömür boyu çobanl\u0131q edib. H\u0259m d\u0259 nec\u0259, kolxozun ail\u0259d\u0259n müsadir\u0259 etdiyi qoyun sürüsünü otar\u0131b. Says\u0131z mal-qaras\u0131, da\u011fda v\u0259 aranda göz i\u015fl\u0259dikc\u0259 uzanan otlaq sah\u0259l\u0259ri olan n\u0259sil\u0259 \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 halda \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n al\u0131nan qoyun sürül\u0259rini otarma\u011f\u0131 güz\u0259\u015ft etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Ana n\u0259n\u0259m n\u0259inki Borçal\u0131 çök\u0259kliyind\u0259, bütün G\u0259nc\u0259basarda tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, çox da hörm\u0259t göst\u0259ril\u0259n molla olub. 7 il \u0130stanbuldan g\u0259l\u0259n ül\u0259madan din d\u0259rsi alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma  ondan sonra bizim qohum-\u0259qraba aras\u0131nda bu i\u015fi heç kim davam etdirm\u0259yib. Övladlar\u0131 Quran\u0131, dini ayin v\u0259 m\u0259rasim qaydalar\u0131n\u0131 kifay\u0259t d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 bils\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, dinl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmay\u0131blar. Y\u0259qin buna t\u0259sir d\u0259 göst\u0259rilm\u0259yib. S\u0259rb\u0259st dü\u015fünc\u0259y\u0259 imkan verm\u0259k kor bula\u011f\u0131n gözünü t\u0259mizl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yir ki, bu da t\u0259f\u0259kkürünün formala\u015fmas\u0131nda bir h\u0259yat  amilidir. Bunu t\u0259rz olaraq m\u0259nims\u0259m\u0259k genetik m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir. Kiçik ya\u015flar\u0131mdan özgür, s\u0259rb\u0259st dü\u015fünc\u0259y\u0259 meyilli olmu\u015fam. Sözsüz, buna valideyinl\u0259rim  imkan\u0131 yarad\u0131blar. <\/p>\n

Böyüdüyüm mühit sonralar h\u0259m yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q, h\u0259m d\u0259 ya\u015fam etibaril\u0259 formala\u015fma\u011f\u0131mda h\u0259lledici rol oynay\u0131b. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 insan\u0131n dü\u015fünc\u0259 azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, m\u0259ntiqi arzular\u0131n\u0131 \u0259sas tutan bir çevr\u0259d\u0259 olma\u011fa üstünlük verir\u0259m. U\u015faqlar üçün d\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259raiti yaratma\u011fa çal\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. Adam t\u0259kc\u0259 özüyl\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qalanda, fikrini ifad\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 ç\u0259kin\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259rar zaman\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259ddüdl\u0259r ön\u0259 keçir. Bel\u0259likl\u0259, h\u0259yat v\u0259 ictimai f\u0259aliyy\u0259t üçün laz\u0131mi müst\u0259qil dü\u015fünc\u0259nin \u0259sas missiyas\u0131 oriyentirini itirir.
\nU\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan yad\u0131m da çox \u015feyl\u0259r qal\u0131b. \u018fsas\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259rli xatir\u0259l\u0259r çoxdur.  Ya\u015f ard\u0131qca bu xatir\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 çoxal\u0131r, kölg\u0259d\u0259 qalan m\u0259qamlar, olaylar üz\u0259 ç\u0131x\u0131r. Y\u0259ni el\u0259 an\u0131lar var ki, 3-5 il bundan önc\u0259 yuxumda bel\u0259 görm\u0259zdim. Ancaq bir d\u0259 görürs\u0259n, hans\u0131sa olay, yuxu, münasib\u0259t keçmi\u015fd\u0259 uyuyan xatir\u0259nin açar\u0131 olur. Atam 80 ya\u015f\u0131nda olanda 4-5 ya\u015f\u0131nda itirdiyi anas\u0131 v\u0259 bac\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 keçirdiyi günl\u0259r haqq\u0131nda el\u0259 ayd\u0131n, t\u0259f\u0259rrüat\u0131 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, o t\u0259sird\u0259n günl\u0259rl\u0259 ç\u0131xa bilmirdim. M\u0259nc\u0259, adam ya\u015f üst\u0259 ya\u015f g\u0259ldikc\u0259 keçmi\u015fi, kimliyi, h\u0259yat\u0131n, dünyan\u0131n sirl\u0259ri bar\u0259d\u0259 daha ayd\u0131n dü\u015fün\u0259 bilir. Ruhsal h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 yol aç\u0131l\u0131r. B\u0259sir\u0259t gözünün aç\u0131lmas\u0131 budur. T\u0259bii ki, bütün sirl\u0259ri anlatmaq haqq\u0131nda tam fürs\u0259t heç kim\u0259 verilm\u0259yib. <\/p>\n

– M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 nec\u0259 \u015fagird olmusuz?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– 1972-ci ild\u0259 Saraçl\u0131 orta m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 getmi\u015f\u0259m. \u0130lk d\u0259rs gününü yax\u015f\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. Atam\u0131n müharib\u0259d\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir neç\u0259 orden-medal\u0131  a\u011f köyn\u0259yin alt\u0131ndan yaxama  taxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Maraqla u\u015faqlara göst\u0259rirdim. O gün geydiyim t\u0259z\u0259 paltar\u0131n qoxusunu h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 unutmam\u0131\u015fam. O\u011flumu h\u0259r yeni d\u0259rs ilind\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 yola salanda o günü, o paltar\u0131n qoxusunu burnmun ucunda x\u0259fif bir göyn\u0259rti kimi duyuram. 
\nBirinci sinif\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 ilk vaxtlar x\u0259ttim pis idi. Qarda\u015f\u0131m qon\u015fu o\u011flan\u0131 nümun\u0259 ç\u0259kib deyirdi: Görürs\u0259nmi, n\u0259t\u0259h\u0259r muncuq kimi yaz\u0131r, d\u0259ft\u0259ri d\u0259 qaralam\u0131r. Çoxlu yaz x\u0259ttin düz\u0259lsin, birinci ol.  Sonralar x\u0259ttim d\u0259 düz\u0259ldi, öz sevimli f\u0259nnim\u0259 meylimi  mü\u0259yy\u0259nl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bildim. 
\nO vaxtlar ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 q\u0259bul olunanlar t\u0259till\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259lib m\u0259kt\u0259bimizin \u0259traf\u0131nda söhb\u0259t ed\u0259-ed\u0259 g\u0259zi\u015firdil\u0259r. Böyük qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 da onlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda gör\u0259nd\u0259 bir-bir ham\u0131ya tan\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131m. Tay-tu\u015flar\u0131m\u0131zla onlara h\u0259s\u0259d apar\u0131r, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k bar\u0259d\u0259 bir-birimizi sor\u011fu-suala tutur, x\u0259yal v\u0259  t\u0259s\u0259vvürümüzü götür-qoy edirdik. Yuxar\u0131 sinifl\u0259rd\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n mü\u0259lliml\u0259 mübahis\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 giri\u015firdim. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 yeni qohum oldu\u011fumuz \u0259d\u0259biyyat mü\u0259llimi il\u0259 Mirz\u0259 C\u0259lilin “Danaba\u015f k\u0259ndinin \u0259hvalatlar\u0131”nda e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin itm\u0259yi, yaxud o\u011furlanmas\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259 ciddi mübahis\u0259 el\u0259dim. Ax\u0131rda m\u0259kt\u0259b direktoru i\u015f\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259tta arada \u0259s\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 haql\u0131 irad tutulurdu ki, ad\u0131nda, o cüml\u0259d\u0259n sahibinin \u0259lind\u0259n e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin al\u0131nmas\u0131, itm\u0259si, yaxud o\u011furlanmas\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259 ziddiy\u0259t var. M\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k o mü\u0259llim m\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmad\u0131. Dil, \u0259d\u0259biyyat f\u0259nl\u0259rini xüsusil\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdim. “\u018fd\u0259biyyat bülleteni” adl\u0131 divar q\u0259zetini ç\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131m, \u015feirl\u0259r yaz\u0131rd\u0131m. Rayon q\u0259zetind\u0259 m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259rim gedirdi, q\u0259zetin \u0259d\u0259biyyat icmallar\u0131nda ad\u0131m ç\u0259kilirdi. Mü\u0259lliml\u0259r m\u0259ni gör\u0259nd\u0259 öz aralar\u0131nda yava\u015fdan bar\u0259md\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259dl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lqlar\u0131n\u0131 duyurdum. Bu m\u0259n\u0259 ayr\u0131ca qürur verirdi…<\/p>\n

– H\u0259rbi xidm\u0259td\u0259 olmusunuzmu? Harada keçirmisiz? <\/strong><\/p>\n

– Orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259nd\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m t\u0259til\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Sinif yolda\u015flar\u0131mla bizim h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Bizi ça\u011f\u0131r\u0131b bir-bir hans\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yimiz bar\u0259d\u0259 soru\u015fdu. M\u0259n\u0259 s\u0131ra çatanda jurnalistikaya ged\u0259c\u0259yimi söyl\u0259dim. Ona da q\u0259rib\u0259 t\u0259sir ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131. Çünki  bu bar\u0259d\u0259 heç kim\u0259 dem\u0259mi\u015fdim. El\u0259 bilirdil\u0259r, \u0259d\u0259biyyata, ya da politexnik\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m…
\nBirinci il q\u0259bul ola bilm\u0259dim. Sumqay\u0131tda i\u015fl\u0259yib, ya\u015f\u0131m çatanda \u0259sg\u0259rliy\u0259 ça\u011fr\u0131ld\u0131m. \u0130lk aylar Brejnevin do\u011fuldu\u011fu Dneprodzerjinskd\u0259 xidm\u0259t keçdim. Sonra Volqoqrada serjant m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 gönd\u0259rildim. El\u0259 iki ilin tamam\u0131n\u0131 da o \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 keçirdim, dili öyr\u0259ndim. H\u0259rbi hiss\u0259nin divar q\u0259zetinin redaktoru oldum. Evimiz\u0259 gönd\u0259ril\u0259n t\u0259\u015f\u0259kkür m\u0259ktublar\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 qal\u0131r. O dön\u0259m h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n m\u0259nim üçün bir m\u0259kt\u0259b, üzücü d\u0259 olsa, d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndir\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259k  bir \u015fans idi. H\u0259rbi dair\u0259 üzr\u0259 Leninqrad H\u0259rbi ali m\u0259kt\u0259binin jurnalistika fakült\u0259sin\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259rlik yer ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onlardan biri d\u0259 m\u0259n idim. Vaxt\u0131nda düzgün bir m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t, d\u0259st\u0259k olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bu \u015fans\u0131 itirdim. Böyükl\u0259r, xüsus\u0259n d\u0259 ortanc\u0131l  qarda\u015f\u0131m qar\u015f\u0131 ç\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Gedib oralarda avara qalacaqsan, deyirdi… V\u0259 bel\u0259likl\u0259, bu v\u0259 ya dig\u0259r t\u0259klifl\u0259rd\u0259n imtina etm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur olmu\u015fdum. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra Bak\u0131da universitet\u0259 q\u0259bul oldum. Bununla da h\u0259yat\u0131n istiqam\u0259ti tamam d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Dem\u0259li, do\u011frudan da, yaz\u0131ya pozu yoxmu\u015f.
\nB\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259lledici m\u0259qamlarda q\u0259rar v\u0259 dü\u015fünc\u0259miz\u0259 yurda, do\u011fma insanlara ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131q hissl\u0259ri tam hakimlik edir. V\u0259 bu hiss \u0259ks\u0259r\u0259n daha g\u0259r\u0259kli perspektiv m\u0259qs\u0259dl\u0259rd\u0259n yay\u0131nd\u0131rma\u011fa da t\u0259sir göst\u0259rir. Bu m\u0259nada, hissl\u0259rin insan dü\u015fünc\u0259sind\u0259 ön plana ç\u0131xmas\u0131 heç d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 arzuolunan v\u0259 faydal\u0131 n\u0259tic\u0259 vermir.  <\/p>\n

– G\u0259nclik ömrün \u0259n qaynar, isti dövrüdür. O dövrl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259sas n\u0259yi xat\u0131rlay\u0131rs\u0131z?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– G\u0259ncliyimin ilk \u0259n \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tli hiss\u0259si u\u015faql\u0131q, yeniyetm\u0259lik dövrüdü. \u018fn xo\u015f günl\u0259rim do\u011fma k\u0259ndimd\u0259 keçib. M\u0259hz bu ill\u0259rd\u0259 anlam\u0131\u015fam: dost kim, do\u011fma kim, dü\u015fm\u0259n kim, v\u0259t\u0259n, mill\u0259t, torpa\u011f\u0131n müq\u0259dd\u0259sliyi n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir.  Sonra \u0259sg\u0259rlik, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik ill\u0259ri… Borçal\u0131n\u0131n da\u011flar\u0131nda, qayal\u0131qlar\u0131nda, me\u015f\u0259likl\u0259rin adamkeçm\u0259z ç\u0131\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131nda izl\u0259rim qal\u0131b. H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 o izl\u0259rin t\u0259s\u0259vvürümd\u0259 yerini, ölçüsünü, qurulu\u015funu canland\u0131ra bilir\u0259m. H\u0259r g\u0259zintini, dostlarla qurdu\u011fumuz m\u0259clisl\u0259ri, h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131m\u0131, hans\u0131 t\u0259p\u0259d\u0259ki  qaratikan kolunun dibind\u0259n neç\u0259 cüt qulançar, b\u0259növ\u015f\u0259 d\u0259rdiyimi  bel\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. B\u0259z\u0259n könlümd\u0259n keçir, gedib o izl\u0259rimin üstün\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 qoyum.  \u0130tirdiyim do\u011fma insanlar\u0131n sev\u0259r\u0259k \u0259kib-bec\u0259rdiyi, bizi gözütox böyütdüyü v\u0259 can\u0131n\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 torpaqlara üzümü sürtüm… 
\nG\u0259nclik el\u0259 bir m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259dir ki, özünd\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259diyi enerjinin gücü il\u0259 insan kimliyini anlamaq s\u0259viyy\u0259sin\u0259 o dövrd\u0259 çat\u0131r. H\u0259yat yolunun  konturlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259 prosesin\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. Ya ömürlük s\u0259hv edir, ya da m\u0259ntiqi onu düz yola yön\u0259ldir… 
\nG\u0259ncliyimd\u0259 formala\u015fan v\u0259 sonralar h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n \u0259sas istiqam\u0259tin\u0259 çevril\u0259n bir s\u0131ra c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259r  var. Onlar\u0131n yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rzi, sistemi d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k mümkün deyil. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 s\u0259bir, soyuqqanl\u0131l\u0131q göst\u0259r\u0259 bilir\u0259m. Dostlar m\u0259n\u0259, ilan kimi soyuqqanl\u0131d\u0131r, deyirl\u0259r. B\u0259lk\u0259d\u0259 ilan ilind\u0259n oldu\u011fuma gör\u0259dir. Amma \u0259dal\u0259tsizliy\u0259, haqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa qar\u015f\u0131 dem\u0259k olar ki, s\u0259brim yoxdur. Kim olursa olsun, haqs\u0131z sözünü götür\u0259n deyil\u0259m. El\u0259 bilir\u0259m, n\u0259yins\u0259 cavab\u0131n\u0131 vaxt\u0131nda verm\u0259s\u0259m, yaxud yerind\u0259 olmayan n\u0259yis\u0259 gör\u0259nd\u0259 yerin\u0259 qoymasam, unudulmu\u015f bir \u0259\u015fyan\u0131 sahibin\u0259 qaytarmasam h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik gec qalacam. K\u0259ndd\u0259 bizim evd\u0259 h\u0259r \u0259\u015fyan\u0131n daimi yeri olub. Y\u0259ni evin idar\u0259çiliyind\u0259 bir qayda, sistem olub v\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 o sistemin yetirm\u0259siy\u0259m. 
\nT\u0259l\u0259blikd\u0259n bir \u0259valat dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m. H\u0259l\u0259 birinci kursada oxuyurdum. Müasir Az\u0259rbaycan dilind\u0259n mühazir\u0259 v\u0259 seminar\u0131 xan\u0131m-professor Ziyn\u0259t \u018flizad\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 onun bir \u0259zazil xofu vard\u0131. Dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar ki, adam\u0131 gözd\u0259n sald\u0131m\u0131, mütl\u0259q universitetd\u0259n qovduras\u0131d\u0131. Xo\u015flamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaz\u0131ç\u0131lar, \u015fairl\u0259r vard\u0131 ki, onlardan misal g\u0259tirm\u0259k olmazd\u0131. Günl\u0259rin biri, onun d\u0259rsind\u0259 parta yolda\u015f\u0131m Nizami cibimd\u0259ki t\u0259sbehi al\u0131b ç\u0131qq\u0131ldatma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Mü\u0259llim el\u0259 bildi, m\u0259n\u0259m. Aya\u011fa qald\u0131r\u0131b: sinifi t\u0259rk el\u0259, bir d\u0259 s\u0259ni görm\u0259yim! v\u0259 bu kimi sözl\u0259r dedi. M\u0259nim d\u0259 t\u0259rsliyim tutdu. Dedim, ç\u0131xmayacam. O q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131, m\u0259n inad el\u0259yib ç\u0131xmad\u0131m. Ax\u0131r, h\u0259dl\u0259yici tonda: yax\u015f\u0131, – deyib, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259tdi v\u0259  daha dill\u0259nm\u0259di. Sinif\u0259 vahim\u0259 sükut çökmü\u015fdü. U\u015faqlar, t\u0259\u0259ssüfl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131lar. Sanki ham\u0131n\u0131n gözl\u0259ri  “heyf, s\u0259n d\u0259 getdin” – deyirdi. Bundan sonra sinif\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi, birinci m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259rs soru\u015furdu. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259rs\u0259 haz\u0131r deyils\u0259n, -deyib,  2 qiym\u0259t yaz\u0131rd\u0131. Bilirdim ki, bununla m\u0259ni ruhdan salma\u011fa çal\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Amma n\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259n, n\u0259 d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 haz\u0131rla\u015fmaqdan qalm\u0131rd\u0131m. H\u0259m d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k f\u0259aliyy\u0259timin \u0259sas genaeratoru dil faktoru idi. \u0130lin tamam\u0131 g\u0259ldi. \u0130mtahanda g\u0259rginlik olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 y\u0259qin el\u0259mi\u015fdim. Amma gözl\u0259m\u0259diyim n\u0259tic\u0259yl\u0259 rastla\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130mtahan ba\u015flayan kimi yen\u0259 birinci m\u0259ni ça\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Bilet ç\u0259kib haz\u0131rla\u015fmadan dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Misal d\u0259ft\u0259rimi v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259yib h\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulay\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n sözümü k\u0259sib, assistentin\u0259 bax\u0131b dedi: -\u0130smay\u0131l mü\u0259llimi, ist\u0259yir\u0259m, bu o\u011flana “\u0259la” yaz\u0131m, cünki çox vicdanl\u0131d\u0131r. Özümün d\u0259 inama\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lm\u0259di. Onun bel\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cübdo\u011furan m\u0259rdliyi varm\u0131\u015f. <\/p>\n

(ard\u0131 var)<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“O gün geydiyim t\u0259z\u0259 paltar\u0131n qoxusunu h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 unutmam\u0131\u015fam” Bu d\u0259f\u0259ki müsahibimiz tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u015fair-publisist, Az\u0259rbaycanda Atatürk M\u0259rk\u0259zinin ba\u015f redaktoru D\u0259yan\u0259t Osmanl\u0131d\u0131r. Müsahibiml\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259rin\u0259, keçmi\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131q. – U\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259riniz harda…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":251278,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_lmt_disableupdate":"","_lmt_disable":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[94],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-56508","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-musahibe"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/56508","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=56508"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/56508\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/251278"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=56508"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=56508"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=56508"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}