{"id":46924,"date":"2017-05-22T12:09:38","date_gmt":"2017-05-22T08:09:38","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"-0001-11-30T00:00:00","modified_gmt":"-0001-11-29T20:00:00","slug":"","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/?p=46924","title":{"rendered":"Fidan Axundova: <\/font>\u201cM\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131n \u201cd\u00f6yd\u00fcy\u00fc\u201d, \u00f6vlad\u0131 olmayan qad\u0131nam: n\u0259yim\u0259 pax\u0131ll\u0131q edirl\u0259r ki?\u201d<\/b>"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sevil\u0259n aktrisa Fidan Axundovan\u0131n müsahib\u0259sini t\u0259qdim edirik.<\/p>\n

– Fidan\u0131 tan\u0131yanlar “m\u0259rd, a\u011fz\u0131bütöv” xan\u0131md\u0131r, deyirl\u0259r. Neç\u0259 ill\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259 olan biri kimi d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n qalmaq çox ç\u0259tindir.<\/p>\n

– Bayaq bir n\u0259f\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 deyir ki, s\u0259n\u0259 ona gör\u0259 sirrimi deyir\u0259m ki, s\u0259nd\u0259n söz ç\u0131xmayaca\u011f\u0131na \u0259min\u0259n. Ba\u015fqa cür ola bilm\u0259z. Onda m\u0259n Fidan olmaram ki… Amma deyim ki, ir\u0259li getm\u0259k üçün g\u0259r\u0259k o girdaba dü\u015f\u0259s\u0259n. M\u0259n teatrda i\u015fl\u0259dim. Amma inan\u0131n ki, o girdaba dü\u015fm\u0259dim. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 sözün düzünü dedim, özü d\u0259 düz sahibinin üzün\u0259… v\u0259 bir gün ba\u015fa dü\u015fdüm ki, m\u0259n o mühitd\u0259 qala bilm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Xarakterin mane oldu?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, m\u0259n riyakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131, ikiüzlüyü bacarmad\u0131m. V\u0259 deyim ki, bu xüsusiyy\u0259tim m\u0259n\u0259 ir\u0259li getm\u0259kd\u0259 çox mane olub. \u018fg\u0259r bunlar\u0131 bacarsayd\u0131m, indi bilirsiz hardayd\u0131m? El\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki bacarmam\u0131\u015fam. Yoxsa insanlar\u0131n sevgisini qazanmazd\u0131m. Çox \u015fükür bu gün\u0259 ki m\u0259ni sev\u0259n tama\u015faç\u0131lar var. Özü d\u0259 \u0259n çox ona \u015fadam ki, daha çox qad\u0131nlar\u0131n r\u0259\u011fb\u0259tini qazanm\u0131\u015fam. Yolda, t\u0259dbirl\u0259rd\u0259, toylarda analar yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r, \u015f\u0259kil ç\u0259kdirir, xo\u015f sözl\u0259r deyirl\u0259r. Bundan böyük d\u0259y\u0259r varm\u0131? O anlarda \u015fükür edir\u0259m ki, dem\u0259k insanlara içimd\u0259ki o i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 göst\u0259r\u0259 bilmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Qad\u0131nlar\u0131n sevgisi d\u0259, nifr\u0259ti d\u0259 ba\u015fa dü\u015fül\u0259ndir. Allah ki\u015fil\u0259rin nifr\u0259tind\u0259n v\u0259 dedi-qodusundan saxlas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

– Ki\u015fil\u0259rin qeyb\u0259tind\u0259n olmaz… Son ill\u0259r ki\u015fil\u0259rin qeyb\u0259ti daha çoxal\u0131b.<\/p>\n

– Bir da\u011fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 üçün \u0259sl ki\u015fi obraz\u0131 nec\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

– Qoruyan, idar\u0259 ed\u0259n v\u0259 yön\u0259ld\u0259n – m\u0259nim üçün \u0259sl ki\u015fi obraz\u0131 budur. Baxmayaraq ki, m\u0259n dominant insanam, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 içimd\u0259 bir hökmranl\u0131q, dediyimin olmas\u0131 hikk\u0259si var, amma dü\u015fünür\u0259m ki, ail\u0259d\u0259 ki\u015finin sözü keçm\u0259lidir. Ka\u015f siz bil\u0259siz ki, m\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r narahat adamam. Evd\u0259 ham\u0131 yatar, Fidan qaza baxar, suyu ba\u011flayar, i\u015f\u0131\u011fa n\u0259zar\u0259t ed\u0259r. Xalam q\u0131z\u0131 deyir ki, s\u0259n balalar\u0131n\u0131 qanad\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na y\u0131\u011fan q\u0131rt toyu\u011fa ox\u015fay\u0131rsan. Evd\u0259 kim hara gedirs\u0259, arxas\u0131nca g\u0259zir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Evinizd\u0259 neç\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259r var ki?<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n\u0259m, bir d\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131m… Amma qonaq-qaram çox olur. H\u0259tta onlar\u0131 yola salanda bel\u0259 z\u0259ng edib, çat\u0131b-çatmad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015furam. Bilmir\u0259m yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, ya pis, mühafiz\u0259karl\u0131q art\u0131q m\u0259nim can\u0131mdad\u0131r. Yönl\u0259ndirm\u0259yi sevir\u0259m. Ki\u015fi xüsusiyy\u0259tl\u0259rim çoxdur. Oturum, ba\u015f ver\u0259n bir hadis\u0259ni analiz edim, n\u0259tic\u0259 ç\u0131xar\u0131m, durum… \u0259sl m\u0259nlikdir. D\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131sqancam. Amma büruz\u0259 vermir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259nin kimi qad\u0131n\u0131n ki\u015fisi d\u0259 q\u0131sqanc olar.<\/p>\n

– Düzdür, o, m\u0259n\u0259 çox inan\u0131r. Amma ist\u0259diyim s\u0259rb\u0259stliyi verm\u0259yib. Siz\u0259 bir söz deyim? \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259n ki\u015fi olsayd\u0131m el\u0259 qad\u0131n xasiyy\u0259timd\u0259ki kimi ki\u015fi olard\u0131m. Çünki m\u0259n it kimi sadiq insanam. Özümü yan\u0131mdak\u0131 ki\u015fi üçün deyil, özüm üçün qoruyuram. Özüm\u0259 art\u0131q heç n\u0259yi s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131ram. Dü\u015fünür\u0259m ki, güzgüy\u0259 baxanda da gözl\u0259rimd\u0259n utanmamal\u0131yam. M\u0259nimçün \u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tlisi öz gözümd\u0259n dü\u015fm\u0259kdir. H\u0259rd\u0259n bilirsiz, n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m? O ikiüzlü, yaltaq insanlar var ey, gör\u0259s\u0259n onlar özl\u0259rini k\u0259nardan görürl\u0259r?<\/p>\n

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U\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m üçün dar\u0131x\u0131ram…<\/p>\n

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– H\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n 40-c\u0131 zirv\u0259sin\u0259 hans\u0131 ya\u015fdan bax\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

– (dü\u015fünür) Çox q\u0259rib\u0259dir ki, 37 ya\u015f\u0131ndan deyir\u0259m ki, 40 ya\u015f\u0131m var. \u0130nstaqramda 23 il bundan \u0259vv\u0259lki qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 tapd\u0131m. Görü\u015f t\u0259yin etdik, evd\u0259n normal ç\u0131xd\u0131m, yüks\u0259k \u0259hvalda v\u0259dl\u0259\u015fdiyimiz yer\u0259 getdim. El\u0259 ki onlar\u0131 gördüm… M\u0259n bütün görü\u015f boyu a\u011flad\u0131m. H\u0259tta evd\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011flad\u0131m. Onlar\u0131 gör\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015fa dü\u015fdüm ki, s\u0259n dem\u0259, m\u0259n 17 ya\u015f\u0131nda u\u015faq olmu\u015fam. O q\u0131zlar\u0131n simas\u0131nda u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 tapd\u0131m. V\u0259 anlad\u0131m ki, m\u0259n u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m üçün dar\u0131x\u0131ram. Ümumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, ya\u015f\u0131m bar\u0259d\u0259 dü\u015fünm\u0259kd\u0259n qorxuram. M\u0259n ya\u015f\u0131n r\u0259q\u0259mind\u0259n yox, görüntüd\u0259n narahatam.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259nc\u0259, s\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 formada olacaqsan.<\/p>\n

– Y\u0259qin ki… Bayaq evd\u0259n ç\u0131xmazdan \u0259vv\u0259l 10 d\u0259f\u0259 güzgünün qaba\u011f\u0131nda o yan-bu yana f\u0131rland\u0131m, özüm\u0259 bax\u0131b, nec\u0259 göründüyümü bac\u0131mdan soru\u015fdum. Sonra da dedim ki, s\u0259n m\u0259ni ba\u015fa dü\u015fm\u0259zs\u0259n. Ax\u0131 o m\u0259nd\u0259n 10 ya\u015f kiçikdir. M\u0259nim d\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131m az olanda heç n\u0259 vecim\u0259 deyildi, baxmayaraq ki, onda daha toppu\u015f idim, amma indi h\u0259r cizgim\u0259 ön\u0259m verir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259nc\u0259, qad\u0131n\u0131 güclü ed\u0259n n\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

– Söyk\u0259ndiyi çiyin, bir d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259vi yükü… \u018fg\u0259r söyk\u0259ndiyin çiyin güclüdürs\u0259, içinin yükü el\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r olmayacaq, vay o gün\u0259 ki qad\u0131n t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na qala, \u0259sl d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t ondad\u0131r. Bax\u0131n, m\u0259nim 40 ya\u015f\u0131m var, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m yoxdur. Amma m\u0259n bunun a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 d\u0259 hiss etmir\u0259m. Çünki m\u0259ni güclü ed\u0259n ki\u015fi bütün \u0259skiklikl\u0259ri doldurur, h\u0259r \u015feyi \u0259v\u0259z edir. Düz 8 ildir… Bir k\u0259lm\u0259 desin ki, h\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq, dünyam gülüstana dönür. M\u0259n ona el\u0259 inan\u0131ram ki… O d\u0259qiq\u0259 ruhlan\u0131ram v\u0259 dü\u015fünür\u0259m ki, “h\u0259, dem\u0259li, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq, çünki bunu ki\u015fi dedi”.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259n övladl\u0131\u011fa u\u015faq götürüb saxlayasan?<\/p>\n

– Yox, yad adam\u0131n u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 götür\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Özümüzünkül\u0259rd\u0259n kimins\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olsa… b\u0259lk\u0259 q\u0259rar ver\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Bel\u0259 ç\u0131x\u0131r ki, s\u0259n “P\u0259rvan\u0259l\u0259rin r\u0259qsi” serial\u0131nda öz obraz\u0131n\u0131 yaratm\u0131san?<\/p>\n

– Dem\u0259k olar ki… Amma oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131m Ayt\u0259n obraz\u0131 il\u0259 bir f\u0259rqliliyimiz var: m\u0259n heç vaxt ana ola bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131mdan gizl\u0259tm\u0259zdim. V\u0259 \u0259g\u0259r bils\u0259ydim ki, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m kimis\u0259 sevir, onu heç vaxt m\u0259cbur\u0259n yan\u0131mda saxlamazd\u0131m. Buna qürurum yol verm\u0259zdi.<\/p>\n

– Dem\u0259k, s\u0259n bu gün sevdiyin ki\u015finin ç\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259sin\u0259 sakitc\u0259 icaz\u0259 ver\u0259rs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– Çox rahat \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ged\u0259 bil\u0259r; \u0259g\u0259r bils\u0259m ki, o adam m\u0259ni yox, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 sevir. Bu gün d\u0259 ona deyir\u0259m ki, \u0259g\u0259r hiss ets\u0259n ki, daha m\u0259ni sevmirs\u0259n, de v\u0259 get. Özümü o d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 \u0259zdirm\u0259r\u0259m ki, ya öyr\u0259\u015fm\u0259k, ya da yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lir dey\u0259, yan\u0131mda olsun, yox… Mütl\u0259qdir ki, ail\u0259d\u0259 sevgi olsun. M\u0259n sevgi qad\u0131n\u0131yam, sevgisiz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Allah\u0131m\u0131, özümü, yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131, do\u011fmalar\u0131m\u0131, gördüyüm i\u015fi, h\u0259tta bi\u015firdiyim yem\u0259yi bel\u0259 sevir\u0259m. V\u0259 bu, ölünc\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bel\u0259 olacaq.<\/p>\n

AzDRAMA-n\u0131n r\u0259hb\u0259rliyi il\u0259 yola ged\u0259 bilm\u0259dim<\/p>\n

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– S\u0259hv etmir\u0259ms\u0259, s\u0259n bir müdd\u0259t Akademik Milli Dram teatr\u0131nda da çal\u0131\u015fm\u0131san.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259li, amma orada i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yimin ömrü uzun ç\u0259km\u0259di. 2004-cü ild\u0259, öz xahi\u015fiml\u0259 \u0259riz\u0259 yaz\u0131b, i\u015fd\u0259n ç\u0131xd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259?<\/p>\n

– R\u0259hm\u0259tlik \u018fliabbas Q\u0259dirovla yola ged\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Onda m\u0259n televiziyada da f\u0259aliyy\u0259t göst\u0259rirdim. Dedil\u0259r seç: ya televiziya, ya teatr?! M\u0259n d\u0259 televiziyan\u0131 seçdim. V\u0259 dü\u015fünür\u0259m ki, heç d\u0259 s\u0259hv etm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259m d\u0259 bir az \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259 adam\u0131yam; s\u0259h\u0259r i\u015f\u0259 get, ax\u015fam qay\u0131t… bu, m\u0259nlik deyil. Y\u0259ni m\u0259n ç\u0259rçiv\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 s\u0131\u011fmayan adamam. Amma etiraf edim ki, h\u0259rd\u0259n teatr üçün dar\u0131x\u0131ram. Çox ist\u0259rdim ki, bu gün Medeya obraz\u0131n\u0131 oynay\u0131m. Bir d\u0259 m\u0259nfi xarakterl\u0259ri canland\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Rejissorlardan soru\u015furam ki, niy\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259nfi rol vermirsiz? Deyirl\u0259r, ax\u0131 s\u0259nin simanda o yoxdur. El\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bundad\u0131r da… M\u0259n o rolu simam\u0131m \u0259ksin\u0259 olaraq el\u0259 yaradaram ki… Çünki orda i\u015f var. Mülayim, gül\u0259rüz obrazlar\u0131 yaratma\u011fa n\u0259 var ki….<\/p>\n

– Y\u0259ni bunu s\u0259nin simanda gör\u0259c\u0259k bir rejissor tap\u0131lmad\u0131?<\/p>\n

– \u018fslind\u0259, Röv\u015f\u0259n \u0130sax bunu etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Sonra n\u0259s\u0259 fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259nimçün bir nüans maraql\u0131d\u0131r: da\u011fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 hara, aktrisal\u0131q hara?<\/p>\n

– \u018fslind\u0259, m\u0259n tibb texnikumunu bitirmi\u015f\u0259m, ixtisasca tibb bac\u0131s\u0131yam. H\u0259tta \u0259m\u0259liyyat blokunda c\u0259rrah köm\u0259kçisi d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Düz 1 il çal\u0131\u015fd\u0131m; o bir ild\u0259 iki ölüm gördüm. 20 il keçib, o ölüml\u0259r h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yad\u0131mdad\u0131r. Bir gün ba\u015fa dü\u015fdüm ki, bu i\u015f m\u0259nlik deyil, qandan qorxuram. Sonra teatra üz tutdum, yum\u015faq da s\u0259sim vard\u0131. Yoxlad\u0131lar dedil\u0259r, s\u0259nd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 aktrisa olar. \u0130lk tama\u015fam\u0131 da el\u0259 Akademik Milli Dram Teatr\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259hn\u0259sind\u0259, pantomim rolla oynam\u0131\u015fam. Sonra \u0130nc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t Universitetin\u0259 q\u0259bul oldum, H\u0259s\u0259n Turabovun kursunda oxudum. Amma dü\u015fünür\u0259m ki, günü bu gün d\u0259 teatrda olsam, m\u0259suliyy\u0259tsiz aktrisa olard\u0131m. Y\u0259ni bird\u0259n kefim ist\u0259m\u0259z, tama\u015faya da getm\u0259r\u0259m, h\u0259r \u015fey alt-üst olar.<\/p>\n

– Ail\u0259nizin ki\u015fil\u0259ri Fidan\u0131n aktrisal\u0131q qabiliyy\u0259tini nec\u0259 qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirir?<\/p>\n

– Atam arada gülümsünür, hiss edir\u0259m ki, rollar\u0131m xo\u015funa g\u0259lir. Yolda\u015f\u0131m is\u0259 deyir ki, \u0259g\u0259r s\u0259nin istedads\u0131z oldu\u011funu hiss ets\u0259ydim, oturub s\u0259ninl\u0259 söhb\u0259t ed\u0259r, bu yoldan ç\u0259kindir\u0259rdim. \u018fslind\u0259, heç onun n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259yin\u0259 ehtiyac da qalmazd\u0131. M\u0259n özüm ç\u0259kil\u0259rdim. Çünki özüm-özümü yey\u0259n adamam, m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259nqidçi laz\u0131m deyil. Bax\u0131n, m\u0259n neç\u0259 ill\u0259rdir \u015feir yaz\u0131ram, amma üz\u0259 ç\u0131xartm\u0131ram, ay\u0131bd\u0131r ax\u0131, m\u0259n \u015fair deyil\u0259m ki….<\/p>\n

– Çöhr\u0259si bu q\u0259d\u0259r göz\u0259l olan Fidan\u0131n qüsurlar\u0131 n\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

– Diqq\u0259tsiz\u0259m. Bir insanla saatlarla söhb\u0259t ed\u0259r\u0259m, o ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra onun \u0259ynind\u0259 n\u0259 oldu\u011funu q\u0259ti \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yad\u0131ma sala bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Bilirsiz niy\u0259? Çünki m\u0259n ünsiyy\u0259td\u0259 oldu\u011fum insan\u0131n gözl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131ram, \u0259ynin\u0259 yox. M\u0259n\u0259 insan\u0131n gözl\u0259ri, sözl\u0259ri, bir d\u0259 auras\u0131 maraql\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r hissiyyatl\u0131yam ki… H\u0259tta inanmazs\u0131z ki, m\u0259n h\u0259r gün n\u0259n\u0259mi yan\u0131mda hiss edir\u0259m. M\u0259n onun \u0259n sevimli n\u0259v\u0259si olmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

– Sevimli n\u0259v\u0259, övlad, qad\u0131n, aktrisa… Göz-n\u0259z\u0259r y\u0131xar s\u0259ni…<\/p>\n

– \u018fslind\u0259, m\u0259nim el\u0259 birinci evim göz-n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131. Vallah, m\u0259n bu insanlar\u0131 anlam\u0131ram. Ay Zakir\u0259 xan\u0131m, sizc\u0259 m\u0259nim n\u0259yim\u0259 pax\u0131ll\u0131q edirl\u0259r? Bax\u0131n, qad\u0131n kimi h\u0259yat t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n yet\u0259rinc\u0259 döyülmü\u015f\u0259m. Deyim ki, h\u0259dd\u0259n art\u0131q \u015fansl\u0131 da deyil\u0259m. Övlad\u0131m da yoxdur. El\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259bd\u0259b\u0259li h\u0259yat ya\u015fam\u0131ram. Ax\u0131 bir qad\u0131n m\u0259nim n\u0259yim\u0259 pax\u0131ll\u0131q ed\u0259 bil\u0259r ki? Bilmir\u0259m vallah. B\u0259z\u0259n el\u0259 suallar olur ki, cavab\u0131n\u0131 tapm\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

– Bu gün \u0259n ali duan n\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

– Özüm\u0259, do\u011fmalar\u0131ma can sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 arzulay\u0131ram. \u0130kinci, q\u0259lb rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131, bir d\u0259 “b\u0259sdir” dey\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ruzi…<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s övlad?<\/p>\n

– O Allah ver\u0259n payd\u0131r. Vers\u0259 d\u0259, verm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t onundur.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259n ür\u0259kd\u0259n ist\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n…<\/p>\n

– Qorxuram. (s\u0259sinin tonu d\u0259yi\u015fir) Bilirsiz, m\u0259n övlad m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 özümd\u0259 d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m ki, m\u0259n ana olmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m, ya yox. Anam h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyir ki, s\u0259n ana olmadan ana olmusan. Çünki m\u0259n ömrüm boyu bac\u0131-qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ç\u0259kmi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259tta bir d\u0259f\u0259 soru\u015fdum ki, ay mama, m\u0259n s\u0259nin n\u0259yin\u0259m? Dedi, atam da, anam da, bac\u0131m da, qarda\u015f\u0131m da, o\u011flum da, q\u0131z\u0131m da s\u0259ns\u0259n. Dedim, ç\u0259k\u0259 bilmir\u0259m ax\u0131. Dedi, ç\u0259k\u0259rs\u0259n. H\u0259yat\u0131mda el\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f verdi, m\u0259n el\u0259 t\u0259latüml\u0259rd\u0259n ç\u0131xd\u0131m ki… sonda bir \u015feyi d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirdim: bu h\u0259yatda yük ç\u0259km\u0259k üçün do\u011fulmu\u015fam. Çiyinl\u0259rim yorulsa, ayaqlar\u0131m titr\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259… (yenicaq.az)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sevil\u0259n aktrisa Fidan Axundovan\u0131n müsahib\u0259sini t\u0259qdim edirik. – Fidan\u0131 tan\u0131yanlar “m\u0259rd, a\u011fz\u0131bütöv” xan\u0131md\u0131r, deyirl\u0259r. Neç\u0259 ill\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259 olan biri kimi d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n qalmaq çox ç\u0259tindir. – Bayaq bir n\u0259f\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 deyir…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":251278,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_lmt_disableupdate":"","_lmt_disable":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[92],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46924","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-maqazin"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46924","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=46924"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46924\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/251278"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=46924"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=46924"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=46924"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}