{"id":35287,"date":"2016-07-12T16:59:15","date_gmt":"2016-07-12T12:59:15","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"-0001-11-30T00:00:00","modified_gmt":"-0001-11-29T20:00:00","slug":"","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/?p=35287","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259hid komandirin xan\u0131m\u0131: “O bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n son oldu\u011funu bils\u0259ydim, anl\u0131q deyil, \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck baxard\u0131m”<\/b><\/font>"},"content":{"rendered":"

M\u0259nim q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m – \u015e\u0259hid komandir Raquf Orucovun xan\u0131m\u0131 YAZIR<\/strong><\/p>\n

… Ya\u015famaq h\u0259sr\u0259tsiz, h\u0259sr\u0259t sevgisiz, sevgi d\u0259 s\u0259nsiz olmaz. Unutma: sevm\u0259k – daim b\u0259rab\u0259r olmaq deyil, s\u0259n olmasan bel\u0259, s\u0259ni ür\u0259kd\u0259 ya\u015fada bilm\u0259kdir. <\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Murov xatir\u0259l\u0259ri <\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259nim Raquf adl\u0131 q\u0259hr\u0259manla ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n ilk günl\u0259ri Murovdan – onun \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n To\u011fana k\u0259ndind\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 17 illik ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u0259n ç\u0259tin, \u0259n \u0259ziyy\u0259tli günl\u0259ri idi. Amma çox xo\u015fb\u0259xt idik. Çünki ümidl\u0259rimiz vard\u0131. Çünki ikimiz d\u0259 g\u0259nc idik. Sabaha ümidl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131q.
\nRaquf o zaman Murovda k\u0259\u015ffiyyat bölüyünün komandiri idi. Bu mür\u0259kk\u0259b co\u011frafi \u0259razid\u0259 \u0259n ç\u0259tin k\u0259\u015ffiyyat \u0259m\u0259liyyatlar\u0131na r\u0259hb\u0259rlik ed\u0259rdi. H\u0259yat \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259ri çox a\u011f\u0131r idi. \u0130\u015f\u0131\u011fa, qaza, h\u0259tta içm\u0259li suya h\u0259sr\u0259t idik. Odun peçi, kömür sobas\u0131 il\u0259 evimizi isidirdik. \u018ftraf al\u0259ml\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 yaratmaq bel\u0259 ç\u0259tin idi. Bütün bu ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259ri Raquf m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n anlatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n is\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 böyüyüb t\u0259hsil alm\u0131\u015f ali savadl\u0131 q\u0131z bu ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda davam g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n inanm\u0131rd\u0131m. Bu evliliyin t\u0259l\u0259sik verilmi\u015f bir q\u0259rar oldu\u011funu söyl\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 vard\u0131. H\u0259mçinin öz ail\u0259m. Amma m\u0259n Raqufda özümü görürdüm, ona güv\u0259nirdim. Onunla bir yerd\u0259 olmaq s\u0259ad\u0259ti bu ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259rin fövqünd\u0259 dururdu. Körp\u0259 övlad\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bel\u0259 Murovun s\u0259rt q\u0131\u015f\u0131nd\u0131 böyütdük. \u0130kimiz ba\u015f-ba\u015fa verib bütün ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259rin öhd\u0259sind\u0259n g\u0259ldik. D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ndim, amma rahat \u015f\u0259rait\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259m\u0259dim. Çoxlar\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ziyy\u0259tli günl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlayanda k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259n\u0259r, amma m\u0259n o ill\u0259rd\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sevgi v\u0259 f\u0259xrl\u0259 b\u0259hs etdim.
\nBiz Murovda ail\u0259 olaraq b\u0259rkidik, bir-birimiz\u0259 ba\u011fland\u0131q. Heç vaxt unuda bilmir\u0259m: Raquf bir gec\u0259 q\u0259fil ev\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Döyü\u015f paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 geyinmi\u015fdi, silahlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Dedi: "Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 postlara gedir\u0259m. Ola bil\u0259r, ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259m". Körp\u0259 Aq\u015finl\u0259 görü\u015füb yola dü\u015fdü. Kims\u0259siz h\u0259y\u0259t, tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlar, rabit\u0259 vasit\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 yox. Düz be\u015f gün g\u0259lm\u0259di. O be\u015f gün m\u0259n\u0259 be\u015f il kimi göründü. Amma sonunda sa\u011f-salamat g\u0259ldi. Bilmir\u0259m, niy\u0259 o be\u015f gün ç\u0259kdiyim h\u0259y\u0259candan sonra h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 Raquf \u0259m\u0259liyyatlara ged\u0259nd\u0259, art\u0131q \u0259min idim ki, harda olursa-olsun sa\u011f-salamat qay\u0131dacaq.
\nTo\u011fanada s\u0259kkiz il xidm\u0259t etdi. Ham\u0131 onu sevdi, tan\u0131d\u0131. O, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli, qorxmaz bir zabit idi. Eyni zamanda alic\u0259nab ata, h\u0259r bir qad\u0131n\u0131n arzu ed\u0259c\u0259yi bir \u0259r idi. H\u0259rbçi h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n bütün ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmayaraq, m\u0259n onunla xo\u015fb\u0259xt idim.
\nM\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, Murov h\u0259yat\u0131 insan\u0131 b\u0259rkidir, ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259r\u0259 sin\u0259 g\u0259rm\u0259yi öyr\u0259dir. H\u0259yatda qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n dig\u0259r ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259r o h\u0259yat\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda aciz qal\u0131r.
\nBir d\u0259 o h\u0259yat ona gör\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 asan g\u0259ldi ki, o h\u0259yatda Raquf vard\u0131:  m\u0259nliyi il\u0259, sevgisi il\u0259, q\u0259hr\u0259manl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259… M\u0259n h\u0259qiqi bir q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011fum üçün çox b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r idim.
\n\u0130ndi ona s\u0259sl\u0259nir\u0259m: "Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131nla el\u0259 doluydum ki, getdin v\u0259 gerid\u0259 buraxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n da\u011f\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n iç\u0259risind\u0259 özümü axtar\u0131ram". <\/p>\n

\nV\u0259t\u0259n e\u015fqi <\/strong><\/p>\n

\nGünl\u0259r su kimi ax\u0131b keçdi. Heç bilm\u0259dim Raqufla bu ömrüm n\u0259 tez bitdi. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt gün tez keç\u0259r dey\u0259rl\u0259r. M\u0259nim Raqufa olan e\u015fqim gün keçdikc\u0259 azalmad\u0131, \u0259ksin\u0259 biz bir ruh \u0259kizin\u0259 döndük. Araya ayr\u0131l\u0131q dü\u015fdü. Raqufu h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259td\u0259 t\u0259k qoyub \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 dön\u0259si oldum. Cism\u0259n ayr\u0131lsaq da, ruh\u0259n ayr\u0131lmad\u0131q. El\u0259 bilirdim h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yan\u0131mdad\u0131r.<\/span><\/p>\n

Raquf h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259tini A\u011fdamda dü\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259 üzb\u0259üz taborun da komandiri kimi davam etdirdi. Getdikc\u0259 pe\u015f\u0259karl\u0131\u011f\u0131, t\u0259crüb\u0259si ona daha da \u015föhr\u0259t g\u0259tirirdi.<\/p>\n

Bu ill\u0259rd\u0259 (2005-2006-c\u0131 ill\u0259rd\u0259 m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259m a\u011f\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259n sevincli anlar\u0131 ya\u015fand\u0131) x\u0259st\u0259liyiml\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dar uzun müdd\u0259t x\u0259st\u0259xanada müalic\u0259 ald\u0131m. \u018fkiz övladlar\u0131m\u0131z dünyaya g\u0259ldi. Raquf xidm\u0259td\u0259n aralan\u0131b h\u0259tta m\u0259n\u0259 v\u0259 körp\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 ba\u015f ç\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Körp\u0259l\u0259rimizd\u0259n birini itirdik. M\u0259n yen\u0259 t\u0259k idim. H\u0259m x\u0259st\u0259lik, h\u0259m övlad ac\u0131s\u0131 m\u0259ni y\u0131xmad\u0131. Mübariz\u0259 apard\u0131m. Çünki Raquf vard\u0131. O, fiziki c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n biziml\u0259 deyildi, amma ür\u0259kl\u0259rimiz eyni vururdu. M\u0259n onu ba\u015fa dü\u015fürdüm. Bilirdim ki, bu insan ancaq V\u0259t\u0259n üçün do\u011fulub. Onun üçün V\u0259t\u0259n e\u015fqi bütün e\u015fql\u0259rd\u0259n üstün idi. Bir d\u0259 ona \u0259man\u0259t olunan \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r… Gec\u0259-gündüz onlar\u0131n qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ç\u0259km\u0259yi özün\u0259 \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli v\u0259zif\u0259 bilirdi. Raqufun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259s ed\u0259rdi. Bütün ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259r o varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda aciz qal\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

O\u011flumuz Nihad 3 ayl\u0131q olanda ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bildi. C\u0259mi be\u015f günlüy\u0259. Amma onun h\u0259r g\u0259li\u015finin özü bir sevinc, xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik idi. Özü il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r el\u0259 bir s\u0259ad\u0259t, canlanma g\u0259tir\u0259rdi. G\u0259li\u015fi il\u0259 bir h\u0259sr\u0259t bit\u0259r, gedi\u015fi il\u0259 yeni bir ayr\u0131l\u0131q ba\u015flard\u0131. Çünki Raquf m\u0259nim bitm\u0259y\u0259n h\u0259sr\u0259timdi, taleyimdi, onunla ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131m günl\u0259rin h\u0259sr\u0259tin\u0259 doyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u0259niz gözlü yar\u0131md\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir Raquf vard\u0131. Özl\u0259yib yeti\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim. <\/p>\n

\nAna sevgisi, ana h\u0259sr\u0259ti <\/strong><\/p>\n

\nH\u0259rbi xidm\u0259td\u0259 yüks\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259, Raqufun ür\u0259yind\u0259, gözl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bitm\u0259y\u0259n bir h\u0259sr\u0259t vard\u0131. N\u0259 vaxt ona des\u0259m ki, bu h\u0259yat nem\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n, bu \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 k\u0259hk\u0259\u015fandan niy\u0259 yararlanm\u0131rsan? Q\u0259mli v\u0259 t\u0259nbehedici bax\u0131\u015flarla m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b dey\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n

– V\u0259t\u0259n ana dem\u0259kdir. Bu iki m\u0259fhum bir-birind\u0259n ayr\u0131 ola bilm\u0259z. Amma m\u0259n onlar\u0131n h\u0259r ikisini s\u0259ng\u0259rin o biri üzünd\u0259 qoymu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

Erm\u0259ni quldurlar\u0131n\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131 \u015f\u0259hid etm\u0259si, onu g\u0259nc ya\u015flar\u0131nda itirm\u0259si Raqufun ür\u0259yind\u0259 ancaq döyü\u015f ruhunu ucald\u0131rd\u0131. Bu insan ancaq s\u0259ng\u0259r üçün yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259ng\u0259rd\u0259n qeyri heç bir h\u0259yat \u015f\u0259ratini q\u0259bul etmirdi. Döyü\u015f onun ruhunda idi.<\/p>\n

Heç vaxt unutmaram, bir d\u0259f\u0259 yayda A\u011fdamda olark\u0259n televiziya ekranlar\u0131nda bir türk filmi göst\u0259rilirdi. Kino \u0259s\u0259ri bir neç\u0259 övlad\u0131 olan, amma ah\u0131l ça\u011flar\u0131nda bax\u0131ms\u0131z qal\u0131b, qocalar evin\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdiril\u0259n bir anan\u0131n taleyind\u0259n b\u0259hs edirdi. Anan\u0131n ac\u0131 taleyi Raqufu kövr\u0259ltmi\u015fdi, hiss etdim ki, için-için a\u011flay\u0131r, büruz\u0259 verm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 çal\u0131\u015f\u0131r. O zaman d\u0259rk etdim ki, Raquf göründüyü kimi möhk\u0259m, s\u0259rt xarakterli bir komandir deyil. O zaman Raquf m\u0259n\u0259 küç\u0259d\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259r\u0259k qorxub a\u011flayan bir körp\u0259ni xat\u0131rlatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, keçirdiyi a\u011f\u0131r döyü\u015f \u0259m\u0259liyyatlar\u0131nda onu qoruyan \u015f\u0259hid anas\u0131n\u0131n ruhudur. H\u0259tta \u015f\u0259hidliyind\u0259n iki ay qabaq dedi ki, dey\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n Allah\u0131n sevimli quluyam, bils\u0259n, nec\u0259 ç\u0259tinlikl\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259ni qoruyub.<\/p>\n

Amma s\u0259n dem\u0259, tale biz\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131da daha faci\u0259li al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131 yaz\u0131bm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

"S\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ölümün gözün\u0259 dik baxd\u0131n, ölümün özünü aldatd\u0131n. \u0130ki il qabaq a\u011f\u0131r avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131 keçir\u0259nd\u0259 ay\u0131lan kimi ilk s\u0259ni axtard\u0131m. S\u0259n dimdik ayaqdayd\u0131n. O d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli q\u0259za s\u0259n\u0259 heç x\u0259sar\u0259t yetir\u0259 bilm\u0259di. S\u0259ni ayaqda gör\u0259nd\u0259 arxay\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. Bildim ki, s\u0259n ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n haray\u0131na çata bil\u0259rs\u0259n. El\u0259 d\u0259 oldu. X\u0259st\u0259xanada s\u0259n\u0259 dedim ki, Allah s\u0259ni v\u0259 balalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bir daha qorudu. Dedin ki, yaz\u0131q deyil\u0259m, bel\u0259 adi bir q\u0259zada ölüm. B\u0259s m\u0259nim ill\u0259rdir ç\u0259kdiyim \u0259ziyy\u0259t. M\u0259n özüm\u0259 bel\u0259 ölümü yara\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131ram, dedin".<\/p>\n

Sözl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259qiq\u0259t varm\u0131\u015f, çox keçm\u0259di ki, onu da anlatd\u0131. H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n ölümün d\u0259 göz\u0259li, \u015f\u0259r\u0259flisi varm\u0131\u015f. V\u0259 Raquf ona do\u011fru t\u0259l\u0259sirdi…<\/p>\n

A\u011fdam üçün dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

A\u011fdam\u0131m – ana \u0259tirli torpa\u011f\u0131m,
\nA\u011fdam, A\u011fdam, A\u011fdam!
\nS\u0259ni dü\u015fündükc\u0259
\nParçalan\u0131r içim, çölüm,
\nA\u011fdam, 
\nS\u0259ni \u0259sir edib,
\nYa\u015fatd\u0131lar m\u0259n\u0259 zülüm,
\nS\u0259nsiz keç\u0259n ill\u0259rimi,
\nHans\u0131 qara yel\u0259 verim?<\/strong><\/p>\n

A\u011fdam, A\u011fdam…<\/strong><\/p>\n

2012-ci il 12 fevral. Raqufun q\u0131sa ömründ\u0259 \u0259n sevincli günü. A\u011fdamda h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259 komandiri t\u0259yin edilmi\u015fdi. Sanki do\u011fma torpa\u011f\u0131na bir add\u0131m da yax\u0131nla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 sev\u0259-sev\u0259 getdiyi, ür\u0259kl\u0259 q\u0259bul etdiyi \u0259n göz\u0259l t\u0259qdimat idi. \u015e\u0259hid anan\u0131n balas\u0131 ona do\u011fru daha da yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Raquf h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259d\u0259 ilk \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r çox \u0259ziyy\u0259t ç\u0259kdi. Ön x\u0259tt, s\u0259ng\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131, tabeliyind\u0259 olanlar\u0131n m\u0259suliyy\u0259ti, onlara \u0259n yüks\u0259k \u015f\u0259rait yaratmaq ist\u0259yi v\u0259 dig\u0259r m\u0259qs\u0259dl\u0259r onu gec\u0259-gündüz i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 vadar edirdi. Amma o, heç yoruldum dem\u0259di. Çünki V\u0259t\u0259ni üçün V\u0259t\u0259n övlad\u0131na xidm\u0259t edirdi. Dig\u0259r bölg\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq A\u011fdam ona daha \u0259ziz, daha do\u011fma idi.<\/p>\n

Xidm\u0259ti il\u0259 özün\u0259 o zonada böyükd\u0259n-kiçiy\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131n hörm\u0259tini qazand\u0131. A\u011fdam\u0131n f\u0259xri, göz b\u0259b\u0259yi oldu. Raqufa gör\u0259 biz d\u0259 ail\u0259likc\u0259 a\u011fdaml\u0131 olduq. O, ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdi, biz ona do\u011fru g\u0259lirdik. T\u0259ki onunla bayram keçir\u0259k, onu daha çox gör\u0259 bil\u0259k. B\u0259lk\u0259 bizim ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015f günl\u0259ri el\u0259 A\u011fdamda – X\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131stan k\u0259ndind\u0259 kiray\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z evd\u0259 keçdi. M\u0259n sonralar bildim ki, Raquf o zaman dü\u015fm\u0259n arxas\u0131na keçib anas\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 ziyar\u0259t edib.<\/p>\n

A\u011fdam Raquf üçün bir sevgi, e\u015fq idi. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 m\u0259zuniyy\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi A\u011fdam üçün dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n onu n\u0259 bayramlarda, n\u0259 ad günl\u0259rind\u0259, n\u0259 xo\u015f günl\u0259rd\u0259 evd\u0259 tapa bilm\u0259dim. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ön x\u0259td\u0259, s\u0259ng\u0259rd\u0259, \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rinin yan\u0131nda oldu. H\u0259rd\u0259n gileyl\u0259nirdim, bu q\u0259d\u0259r yet\u0259r, dey\u0259rdim. Amma cavab\u0131 q\u0131sa olard\u0131: "S\u0259n evd\u0259 rahat oturmusan, camaat\u0131n balas\u0131 ön x\u0259td\u0259 ke\u015fik ç\u0259kir".<\/p>\n

Biruz\u0259 verm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 çal\u0131\u015fsam da, m\u0259n bu keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 gör\u0259 onunla f\u0259xr edirdim. Çünki Raquf heç vaxt öz m\u0259nf\u0259\u0259tini dü\u015fün\u0259n c\u0131l\u0131z duy\u011fulu v\u0259zif\u0259p\u0259r\u0259st olmad\u0131. Dig\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq, "m\u0259n yox", "önc\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259n" dedi.<\/p>\n

\u0130gidlik, V\u0259t\u0259n e\u015fqi qan\u0131nda idi. C\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 bir hadis\u0259 olard\u0131sa, özü önd\u0259 olard\u0131. Dey\u0259rdi, dig\u0259rl\u0259ri m\u0259nd\u0259n ilham al\u0131b, m\u0259n\u0259 arxalan\u0131r. Raquf, do\u011frudan da, bu orduda seçil\u0259n komandirl\u0259rd\u0259n idin. Bunu m\u0259n yox, onu tan\u0131yan bütün zabitl\u0259r deyir.<\/p>\n

Raqufun V\u0259t\u0259n, torpaq sevgisi ölçüy\u0259g\u0259lm\u0259z, sonsuz idi. H\u0259rd\u0259n zarafatla dey\u0259rdim ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259n Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n \u0259n kas\u0131b komandiris\u0259n. Cavab ver\u0259rdi ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 maddi c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n el\u0259dir, amma m\u0259nim xalqdan qazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m sevgi heç bir s\u0259rv\u0259tl\u0259 ölçülm\u0259z. Raquf haql\u0131 idi. M\u0259n buna onun \u015f\u0259hid oldu\u011fu gün \u0259min oldum.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r bir \u0259sg\u0259r Raquf üçün d\u0259y\u0259rliydi, \u0259ziz idi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

2014-cü il 1 avqust.<\/p>\n

H\u0259rbçi h\u0259yat\u0131nda onun \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli günl\u0259rind\u0259n biri idi. C\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259t neç\u0259 günl\u0259r idi ki, a\u011f\u0131r idi. O da \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259ri il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r ön x\u0259td\u0259 olurdu. Erm\u0259ni yen\u0259 öz kinind\u0259n, erm\u0259ni xisl\u0259tind\u0259n \u0259l ç\u0259km\u0259di. A\u011f\u0131r döyü\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 Raquf bir neç\u0259 \u0259sg\u0259rini \u015f\u0259hid verdi. M\u0259n o zaman \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r üçün tökdüyü göz ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 gördüm. Deyirdi: "M\u0259n özüm\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilm\u0259r\u0259m ki, onlar\u0131 m\u0259nfur dü\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n qoruya bilm\u0259dim. M\u0259n bu gün neç\u0259 ev\u0259 \u015f\u0259hid yola sald\u0131m". Amma o \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rin qisas\u0131n\u0131 dü\u015fm\u0259nd\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Erm\u0259nil\u0259r onu göz\u0259l tan\u0131y\u0131r, izl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Bilirdil\u0259r ki, A\u011fdam c\u0259bh\u0259sinin möhk\u0259mliyind\u0259, d\u0259yan\u0259tliliyind\u0259 Raqufun öz yeri var. Yerli \u0259hali d\u0259 ona güv\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

A\u011fdam Raquf üçün bitm\u0259y\u0259n bir e\u015fq, sevgi, heç tük\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259n ana h\u0259sr\u0259ti idi.  <\/p>\n

\n\u015e\u0259hidlik – ölümsüzlüy\u0259 ged\u0259n yol <\/strong><\/p>\n

\n…O bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n son oldu\u011funu bils\u0259ydim, anl\u0131q deyil, ömürlük baxard\u0131m.<\/span><\/p>\n

Raquf sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 mart ay\u0131n\u0131n 20-24-d\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 ezamiyy\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Amma bu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki s\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259mirdi. H\u0259m t\u0259la\u015fl\u0131, h\u0259m narahat idi. Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 gün heç vidala\u015fmad\u0131 da. El\u0259 bildim, ax\u015fam ev\u0259 dön\u0259c\u0259k. S\u0259n dem\u0259, Bak\u0131dan birba\u015fa h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259y\u0259 geri dönmü\u015fdü. M\u0259ns\u0259, h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259, t\u0259l\u0259sik onun sevdiyi xör\u0259kl\u0259ri haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Z\u0259ng edib bildir\u0259nd\u0259 ki, art\u0131q h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259d\u0259dir, h\u0259l\u0259 incidim d\u0259. Dedim, niy\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rsiz, sa\u011folla\u015fmadan getdin? O günd\u0259n sonra heç bir h\u0259ft\u0259 keçm\u0259di ki, Az\u0259rbaycan ordusunun A\u011fd\u0259r\u0259 istiqam\u0259tind\u0259 u\u011furlar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdim. Raqufun telefonuna z\u0259ng çat\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n hiss edirdim ki, o, \u0259n önd\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

Arxay\u0131nd\u0131m ki, Raqufa heç n\u0259 olmaz. Çünki ill\u0259rin s\u0259ng\u0259r komandiri idi. Erm\u0259ninin h\u0259r hiyl\u0259sin\u0259, oyununa b\u0259l\u0259d idi. M\u0259n ondan yox, t\u0259mas x\u0259ttind\u0259 ya\u015fayan qohumlardan, \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n narahat idim. Ancaq heç dem\u0259, erm\u0259ni ill\u0259rdir izl\u0259diyi, lakin heç cür \u0259l\u0259 keçir\u0259 bilmdiyi  Raqufun – c\u0259sur k\u0259\u015ffiyyatç\u0131n\u0131n ovunda imi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Son d\u0259f\u0259 telefonuma aprelin 3-ü günorta saatlar\u0131nda z\u0259ng etdi. H\u0259min gün ür\u0259yim çox narahat idi. C\u0259bh\u0259 x\u0259ttind\u0259n \u015f\u0259hid  x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri g\u0259lirdi. S\u0259sini e\u015fitc\u0259k arxay\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. Çox rahat v\u0259 \u0259min dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259si heç döyü\u015fd\u0259n ç\u0131xm\u0131\u015f bir insan\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131. Bils\u0259ydim, ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 z\u0259ngi olacaq, min bir b\u0259han\u0259 il\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259ri uzadard\u0131m. Yaln\u0131z özüm bilm\u0259d\u0259n bir k\u0259lm\u0259 soru\u015fdum: "S\u0259ni itirs\u0259m, harda axtar\u0131m? Dedi: "Q\u0259zaya dü\u015fdüyümüz yer\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n". Heç bir söz dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. \u0130nan\u0131rd\u0131m ki, Raqufu erm\u0259ni heç cür m\u0259hv ed\u0259 bilm\u0259z. Erm\u0259ni gücü onun qar\u015f\u0131nda aciz qalar. Çünki hara gets\u0259, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131dard\u0131. Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 qay\u0131tmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

…4 aprel 2016-c\u0131 il. Dey\u0259rdim, h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n \u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli, a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 günü, sözün bitdiyi gün idi. Qarda\u015f itirdim, ac\u0131s\u0131 m\u0259ni bu q\u0259d\u0259r yand\u0131rmad\u0131. Amma Raqufun itkisi o a\u011fr\u0131dan ç\u0259tin idi. \u0130fad\u0259si ç\u0259tindir. Bu k\u0259d\u0259r deyildi. Bu ür\u0259y\u0259 saplanm\u0131\u015f a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n üsyan\u0131 idi. A\u011fr\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259s alma\u011fa  imkan vermirdi. El\u0259 bildim, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli yuxu gördüm, ay\u0131laca\u011fam, h\u0259r \u015fey bit\u0259c\u0259k. M\u0259n bu günü 17 illik evlilik dön\u0259mind\u0259 h\u0259r gün gözl\u0259dim. H\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r telefon z\u0259ng ed\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canlan\u0131rd\u0131m. H\u0259r ax\u015fam yuxuya ged\u0259nd\u0259 ona gör\u0259 dualar ed\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n

Dem\u0259, evimiz\u0259 \u015f\u0259hidlik m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 geri dön\u0259c\u0259kmi\u015f… Raquf el\u0259 bir \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t idi ki, m\u0259nc\u0259, ona ba\u015fqa ölüm yara\u015fmazd\u0131. Çünki \u0259sl V\u0259t\u0259n o\u011flu idi, \u015f\u0259hid anan\u0131n balas\u0131 idi. Namuslu, vicdanl\u0131 bir zabit idi. M\u0259\u011frur, heç k\u0259s\u0259 \u0259yilm\u0259y\u0259n bir ata idi. \u018fsl ki\u015fi kimi \u0259r idi. Ona ancaq bel\u0259 ölüm yara\u015fard\u0131.<\/p>\n

A\u011fdamdan G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 uzanan insan seli Sumqay\u0131tda izdihama çevrildi. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r insan\u0131n bir yer\u0259 topla\u015fmas\u0131na inana bilm\u0259dim. Xalq Raqufu n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r sevirmi\u015f, d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirirmi\u015f. Dem\u0259k, xalq\u0131n sevgisini qazanmaq üçün pafoslu sözl\u0259r, möht\u0259\u015f\u0259m tribunalar laz\u0131m deyilmi\u015f. Xalq\u0131n, mill\u0259tin o\u011flu olmaq laz\u0131m imi\u015f. Raquf V\u0259t\u0259ni, mill\u0259ti can\u0131ndan çox sevdi. Xalq is\u0259 onu ba\u015f\u0131 üstün\u0259 qald\u0131rd\u0131. Mill\u0259tim gözümd\u0259 bir daha ucald\u0131.<\/p>\n

…Raquf, s\u0259nin \u015f\u0259hidliyin yeni bir sevinc yaratd\u0131. Daha mübariz, daha m\u0259tin, haqq u\u011frunda sava\u015fan yeni bir sevinc. S\u0259n m\u0259nim, Aq\u015finin, Nihad\u0131n ba\u015f tac\u0131, f\u0259xris\u0259n. M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 "öldü" demir\u0259m, biz üçümüz d\u0259 \u0259minik ki, s\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131rsan, daim biziml\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u0130nan\u0131rsanm\u0131, evimiz ziyar\u0259tgaha çevrildi. \u015e\u0259hidliyind\u0259n sonra s\u0259ni tan\u0131yan, tan\u0131mayan h\u0259r k\u0259s s\u0259nd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir. M\u0259n inan\u0131ram ki, s\u0259n bunlar\u0131 görür v\u0259 duyursan. \u015e\u0259hid anan\u0131n ruhuna qovu\u015fdu\u011funa da \u0259min\u0259m. M\u0259n is\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fru yol g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 çal\u0131\u015faca\u011fam. Bilir\u0259m ki, uca R\u0259bbim bu s\u0259ad\u0259ti m\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259z. S\u0259nin haqlar\u0131n\u0131n, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli ad\u0131n\u0131n ke\u015fiyini ç\u0259k\u0259-ç\u0259k\u0259 g\u0259lib s\u0259ninl\u0259 görü\u015f\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Bax, o zaman bir damla h\u0259sr\u0259t bit\u0259c\u0259k. H\u0259r keç\u0259n gün m\u0259ni s\u0259n\u0259 daha da yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r. S\u0259n amal\u0131n, \u0259qid\u0259n, torpa\u011f\u0131n u\u011frunda \u015f\u0259hid oldun, amma ail\u0259miz\u0259 çox d\u0259y\u0259rli bir miras qoydun. \u0130nsan n\u0259 olursa-olsun, \u0259qid\u0259sind\u0259n, torpa\u011f\u0131ndan vaz keçm\u0259m\u0259lidir, h\u0259tta can\u0131 bahas\u0131na olsa bel\u0259…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n bütün göz\u0259llikl\u0259r üçün s\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kkür edir\u0259m. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131mda olmusan, varsan v\u0259 olacaqsan, m\u0259nim q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\nS\u0259n\u0259 qovu\u015fmaq h\u0259sr\u0259til\u0259: Sevinc ORUCOVA<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

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