{"id":133882,"date":"2021-11-10T15:03:32","date_gmt":"2021-11-10T11:03:32","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"-0001-11-30T00:00:00","modified_gmt":"-0001-11-29T20:00:00","slug":"","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/?p=133882","title":{"rendered":"\u201cH\u0259r \u015fey x\u0259yal, arzu olaraq qald\u0131\u201d – \u015e\u0259hid polkovnik-leytenant\u0131n h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131<\/b><\/font>"},"content":{"rendered":"

(\u015e\u0259hid polkovnik-leytenant \u018ffqan Abdurahmanovun h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 R\u0259qin\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n<\/em>)<\/strong><\/p>\n

"\u018ffqan dövl\u0259tin\u0259, torpa\u011f\u0131na bayra\u011f\u0131na sevdal\u0131 zabit idi. Bu gün onun kimi \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rimizin, qazil\u0259rimizin, \u0259sg\u0259r v\u0259 zabitl\u0259rimizin say\u0259sind\u0259 aln\u0131m\u0131z aç\u0131qd\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 dik tuta bilirik. Art\u0131q biz m\u0259\u011flub, qüruru l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f bir mill\u0259t deyilik, qalib mill\u0259tik.<\/p>\n

Bundan sonra neç\u0259 il ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmir\u0259m. \u018ffqanla birlikd\u0259 göz\u0259l, xo\u015fb\u0259xt günl\u0259rimiz, ill\u0259rimiz oldu. X\u0259yallar qurduq, pensiyaya ç\u0131xd\u0131qdan sonra sakit bir h\u0259yat ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259r böyütm\u0259yi arzulad\u0131q. H\u0259r \u015fey x\u0259yal, arzu olaraq qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz h\u0259yat m\u0259nim üçün solub, sol\u011funla\u015f\u0131b, \u018ffqan\u0131m! Ömrümün sonunad\u0259k s\u0259nin s\u0259sini, gülü\u015fünü, bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131, qoxunu, q\u0259lbind\u0259ki istiliyini özl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. S\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rin laz\u0131md\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259, s\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259k, gözl\u0259rinin mehriban bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 görm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Amma bunlar\u0131 yaln\u0131z yuxular\u0131mda görür\u0259m, b\u0259z\u0259n susursan, dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rsan, sakitc\u0259, hüzünlü gözl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131r v\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131ma qulaq as\u0131rsan. Yaln\u0131z m\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n-u\u015faqlardan, qohumlardan, havadan v\u0259 sair\u0259d\u0259n. S\u0259n is\u0259 susursan. M\u0259nims\u0259 xo\u015f söhb\u0259tin\u0259, ür\u0259yim\u0259 sakitlik g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k söhb\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m var. “Dan\u0131\u015f, susma, m\u0259n\u0259 bir \u015feyl\u0259r söyl\u0259”.-deyir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Sakit-sakit gülürs\u0259n, gözl\u0259rind\u0259ki i\u015f\u0131q, gülü\u015f, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirir m\u0259ni. Özümü xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss edir\u0259m, çünki yan\u0131mdasan. H\u0259r \u015fey s\u0259ninl\u0259 nec\u0259 d\u0259 göz\u0259ldir. S\u0259ninl\u0259 payla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259r günü xat\u0131rlamaq bel\u0259 m\u0259ni xo\u015fb\u0259xt edir. Yuxuda olsa bel\u0259, dan\u0131\u015fmasan bel\u0259… Amma bu xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyim çox ç\u0259kmir. Gözl\u0259m\u0259diyim bir anda ayr\u0131l\u0131q an\u0131 g\u0259lir, real h\u0259yata qay\u0131d\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

Oyananda yenid\u0259n q\u0259lbim\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r, q\u0259m çökür, “Niy\u0259 oyand\u0131m, nec\u0259 d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt idim”, – dey\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n keçirir\u0259m,- qaranl\u0131q v\u0259 soyuq, k\u0259d\u0259r v\u0259 q\u0259m, göz ya\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259yusluq…<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin gedi\u015finl\u0259 dünya gözümd\u0259 bir az qarald\u0131, anlam\u0131n\u0131 bir az da itirdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n keçdim,
\namma bir s\u0259nd\u0259n vaz keç\u0259m\u0259m,
\nToxunulmaz\u0131msan m\u0259nim,
\nÜr\u0259yim\u0259 hökm ed\u0259m\u0259m…<\/p>\n

Dövl\u0259t ba\u015fç\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131na uy\u011fun olaraq \u015f\u0259hid ail\u0259si kimi biz\u0259 yeni ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f kompleksind\u0259 m\u0259nzil verildi. M\u0259nzild\u0259 olark\u0259n \u018ffqan\u0131 yan\u0131mda hiss etdim. Qoxu onun qoxusu idi. Bu qoxunu unutmaq olarm\u0131? Mümkünsüzdür, M\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fma olan qoxu idi. Bir anl\u0131q ürp\u0259ndim, özümd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq \u0259trafa bax\u0131b \u018ffqan\u0131m\u0131 axtard\u0131m. Yan\u0131mda ba\u015fqa adamlar olmasa idi, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131racaqd\u0131m, birt\u0259h\u0259r özümü toparlad\u0131m. Gözl\u0259rimd\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131q, k\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015f\u0131 axd\u0131. Tez sildim ki, \u0259trafdak\u0131lar ür\u0259yimd\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 hiss etm\u0259sinl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bu gün d\u0259 \u018ffqan\u0131m yan\u0131mdad\u0131r, ruhu bel\u0259 olsa, d\u0259st\u0259kdir m\u0259n\u0259!"<\/p>\n

Pünhan \u018ff\u0259ndiyev<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(\u015e\u0259hid polkovnik-leytenant \u018ffqan Abdurahmanovun h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 R\u0259qin\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n) "\u018ffqan dövl\u0259tin\u0259, torpa\u011f\u0131na bayra\u011f\u0131na sevdal\u0131 zabit idi. Bu gün onun kimi \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rimizin, qazil\u0259rimizin, \u0259sg\u0259r v\u0259 zabitl\u0259rimizin say\u0259sind\u0259 aln\u0131m\u0131z aç\u0131qd\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 dik…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":251278,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_lmt_disableupdate":"","_lmt_disable":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[101],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-133882","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-cemiyyet"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/133882","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=133882"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/133882\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/251278"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=133882"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=133882"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ucnoqta.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=133882"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}